oh, what a day.

i'm not good with words... but i have many thoughts. i love to sing, joyful noises for all to hear. i have a heart for people. making everyone around me smile is my goal; a goal i strive to reach daily. my family holds me together and keeps me safe. i love the idea of love, yet i've never experienced it with another person..although i'd like to. a picture; a dance; a pose; a gesture; a word; a touch - all can inspire us. having passion for something automatically wins my respect. a quirky line or a stupid cat video can entertain me, just as easily as a performance by Sutton Foster could. i live to learn and learn to live everyday. i'm constantly listening and waiting for a sign... a sign to tell me what it is I will become one day and the legacy i will leave.

Reading.

I would love to just be able to sit down and read a book.

but it’s not that simple.

I have a small speech impediment (mild stutter).

it is random, unexpected, and spontaneous; doesn’t really follow a rhythm or pattern.

audibly, it isn’t too noticable.

but it greatly affects by ability to retain written text and comprehend it quickly.

it will sometimes take 10 minutes just to finish reading a paragraph. 

everything must be said in a proper rhythm or I must start it all over again.

standardized testing sucked, obviously.

and reading novels or books of decent length are almost impossible to complete.

although I would love to dive into a book, it isn’t too appealing due to the inconvenience of my mental stutter.

it’s a sad truth I have accepted; and that’s all I can do.